Lost in the flesh

I wasted over 10 years not thinking about God. Well, I never went out of my way to search for Him. I believe I always had that deep inner voice telling me what was right or wrong, that could have been my parents voices or the Holy Spirit. I graduated high school, and from a from a trade school. I was working at a resturant/bar called the paradice, it was owned by the Maltos family, Valentin and Angie, and their son Ernie, and grandson Val "Popos". I was interduced to Angie's dauther Irma, Val's mother. She was very beautiful and seemed to like me. I was interested in her, but I was affraid of ruining the close relationship I had with the rest of the Maltos family if things didn't work out between Irma and I. I talked to Val and Angie about my fears, and they were supportive of me dating Irma. They told me she was in need of someone like me..??

My faith backround

I was raised baptist form as early as I can remember, to about the age of 12 years old. It was at the Faith Bible Baptist church in Greeley Co. the preacher was pastor Norton. I remember the night I was saved, "accepted Jesus as my lord and savior" It was it a rollerskating rink where we were having a church night out. Pastor Norton asked me if I was ready to bring Jesus into my life? I said, I was ready. We knelt down and he prayed a prayer that brought me to tears. I distinctly remember feeling God's love. Man, what a feeling, I have never felt anything like that until about 2 years ago, at my first Communion. I was baptized soon after that, along with my dad and brother. My family left that church within months after my baptism, pastor Norton had left the church for some reason. I spent the next decade trying to find myself.....???