Lost in the flesh

I wasted over 10 years not thinking about God. Well, I never went out of my way to search for Him. I believe I always had that deep inner voice telling me what was right or wrong, that could have been my parents voices or the Holy Spirit. I graduated high school, and from a from a trade school. I was working at a resturant/bar called the paradice, it was owned by the Maltos family, Valentin and Angie, and their son Ernie, and grandson Val "Popos". I was interduced to Angie's dauther Irma, Val's mother. She was very beautiful and seemed to like me. I was interested in her, but I was affraid of ruining the close relationship I had with the rest of the Maltos family if things didn't work out between Irma and I. I talked to Val and Angie about my fears, and they were supportive of me dating Irma. They told me she was in need of someone like me..??